I watched the sunrise today, haven't done that for awhile. I then realized that the beginning of every day is a "fresh start". It doesn't matter where you were yesterday, last year, or even 5 minutes ago. You can begin anew daily.
I have realized that I tend to take the little things for granted. The birds meet you with a morning song and the air has a cool touch. You breath in and have a moment of serenity, when you know that everything is going to be fantastic, but then we slowly get bogged down by everything through out the day. If we can just hold that thought and bring it back in our moments of "bogness", we can continue being happy and having that fantastic feeling last.
My therapist and I have decided that I write down 10 positive things before I eat breakfast. I have challenged myself to make sure that every days is different. Don't loose that feeling of hope and don't you dare give up. Life today isn't easy and there are so many allies that we can take to make the pain go away, live in it and conquer the pain, the sadness, the loneliness, or whatever it may be. With this you become a stronger being. You are what you overcome and your weaknesses become your strengths.
I am finding out that I am a strong person, I just needed to be tested to find that out. I know now that I can overcome anything that is thrown my way, whether or not I think I can get past it, in that moment. I have friends and family that care dearly for me and would help me if I ever needed it. I have doctors that I consult with about my health on a regular bases. I am becoming something I never thought I could be, STRONG!
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Friday, June 3, 2011
Love and Diagnost
It's funny since I have been diagnost I feel as if I have to fight hard for love. Last night was beautiful, spent it with the one I love to make her feel better. I feel as if I still have to fight though as if I have to keep pushing harder and harder. It can get very stressful at times but I know that it will be worth it in the end. I just hope that things will work out, I am a strong believer in "things happen for a reason".
I have started working out, alot! 2 hours a day, feel as if I have sometype of purpose when I blow steam off or just have fun while working out. Things seem to be looking up, the meds I am on help me focus like have never been able to, things actually get done. I don't give up anymore half way through a project.
Work is great, I hope to be the store manager in 5 years time, if I don't go on a LDS mission. I love my work, it's hard but fulfilling. I hope to get faster and more accurate. My life feels full of purpose once again. I hope that it doesn't stop feeling this way, I have purpose and feel so alive.
I have started working out, alot! 2 hours a day, feel as if I have sometype of purpose when I blow steam off or just have fun while working out. Things seem to be looking up, the meds I am on help me focus like have never been able to, things actually get done. I don't give up anymore half way through a project.
Work is great, I hope to be the store manager in 5 years time, if I don't go on a LDS mission. I love my work, it's hard but fulfilling. I hope to get faster and more accurate. My life feels full of purpose once again. I hope that it doesn't stop feeling this way, I have purpose and feel so alive.
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